Yes, if a therapy will actually work that would be a very big surprise to me. My whole life is a disappointment but I donīt want to just state it is, I want to know that Iīve tried to make changes in different ways.
I donīt think itīs anything strange about being beyond help, not everyone can be helped. What I mean by a better life is quite different from what others mean by a better life. I wonīt strive towards some "acceptable level", that will only make me as disappointed as I am right now. I know where I am right now, a bit above the absolute bottom.
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Originally Posted by IndestructibleGirl
What do they show?! You are making major assumptions!
Maybe it shows she has a different personal style of emailing to you. Maybe it shows she had three minutes to fire off a reply so focused on including the important information. Maybe it shows that she feels it is appropriate to veer more on the businesslike side, until you have had a few sessions, know one another better, and take first steps into an established relationship where warmth and interest are natural follow ons from that connection.
And this -
"I keep searching for a T to be really sure Iīve done what I could to find one. If I search in a thorough manner but still donīt find one, Iīll know I canīt do anything to improve my situation."
This sounds like you are desperate to prove to yourself (and, interestingly, to us, perhaps to reassure yourself further) that you are past help, past all redemption, past moving towards the life you really want.
What is more important to you? Getting a better life? Or being 'right' and proving there's nobody suitable to help you?
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