First of all hi all. I haven't been on here for some time now. Pretty much buried my head in the sand for the last X amount of months. I am beginning to feel worse though lately. My marriage is stale and has been for a long time. Our personal life is none existent. And lately I find it hard even to be in the company of my wife without an argument sparking or just both of us being in the same room together but not actually speaking (just doing out own thing). It's getting to the point now where I am having dreams about my ex girlfriend too. And for some reason she is on my mind again. I don't know if this is just a result of the staleness of my marriage and I am fully aware there are things I could do better my relationship with my wife, but I just can't be bothered to make the effort. As shallow as that sounds most of you will probably be able to relate as this is a symptom of depression. little or no interest in anything. I guess I am just having a bad time but I feel like I'm in a rut. Last I spoke to my doctor the next step was psychiatric help. Which scares me. Not sure I want to speak to anyone really. If I'm honest, I don't even know where this thread is going, so I'll just stop there. Anyway I hope you are all well and coping with life's traumas. Sorry it's been so long x