I agree with Hankster. One hundred percent. I say that not just from reading this thread, but from reading all of Growli's threads. I also agree with stopdog. One hundred percent.

My own thoughts: Getting rid of LCM will solve nothing because the pain is coming from inside you, Growli, from some really insecure attachment and transference issues. I hope you also find a T who's specially trained in trauma work for the special kind of trauma you suffered.

But I don't see any reason at all that LCM can't remain an important part of your support network. Keep LCM. Talk to her about your feelings and freakouts. And, as many other posters who care deeply about you say, get a trauma T to help with some deep trauma work, something LCM is probably not trained to do.

As long as LCM and a trauma T work on the same wavelength, there's no reason you can't have both in your life. I see it as a both/and situation; not either/or.

Take Care, Growli.