Thanks, everyone. I don't really have an adult I can talk to, because when things get serious, they'll just notify my parents, because that's the right thing to do from their perspective.

It's possible that I could tell someone not to tell anyone else, but the last time I tried that, the adult I talked to assured me that she wouldn't tell anyone else, and then she went and told my parents.

That's the worst thing about talking to most people. Maybe I'm exaggerating, but I get the impression that they find me subhuman, they think me crazy or like a ticking time bomb that must be handled delicately. Somehow that makes it okay to lie to me.