yes. i always said this as a joke but it is true... "secrets keep you sick". keeping the secrets of my drug use and eating disorder almost killed me. the relatioship with former T...well...it was very very hard at first when i told. like really hard. i regretted it immediately. but now that T and i are talking about it more and breaking it down and talking about the sexual aspects i hate so much that were involved it feels so relieving because ive kept it in for so long. im glad T and i are talking about it more even though it is hard and stirs up emotions and memories.

as far as work, im glad my store director knows about my MI. i called in once because of depression and he was so nice about it. the day before i was supposed to work every time i thought about going in i felt suicidal. the store director asked if there was any way to support me. i know he is a nice guy and he has never been mean to me or treated me lesser than. so its nice to have the head honcho of the store know about it.