On the whole I was doing better. Then today was horrible! Maybe it was the full moon. Everybody at work was so nasty, except for the head doctor. I was chewed out the minute I walked in the door this morning, then I just wanted to leave. People were griping and complaining and not helping. To make matters worse I felt sick because I think I am coming down with a cold.

Then I thought of all the things that have changed in my life, and not for the better. My children have grown up and left. My daughter is going through a divorce. I miss my parents who passed away 5 years ago. I sometimes wonder why I keep on living, for what? If someone told me today I have cancer, I don't know that I would even fight it. I feel sad and lost.