Thanks for the response guys :-)

And for you Rapunzel, what you say is right; it must come from within. Another interesting point you mention is that you were never encouraged to try. This is really important, as your childhood will reflect you throughout your life. However, I believe that anyone can change/improve, allmost no matter what. It might take real hard work, though.

I really can't give you any spesific advice on your current situation because (a) I don't know any spesifics, and (b) I am too inexperienced, only 18 years old :-p