ticktock4, welcome to PC. I do not think that your feelings are laughable at all. In fact you are most probably correct in that when you visualize these scenes you are somehow triggered by them which means you have a strong reaction and maybe something happened to you when you were young that has to do with your reactions. Many people call this a sort of memory loss or dissociation. I am no therapist so this is only speculation. It could be that you suffered some abuse as a child and only a therapist can help you figure this out. Best wishes.