Recently, I shared with my T that a session we had in December felt like a "train wreck".

I left that December day in shock from some events that happened prior to arriving at my session. Plus, T just wasn't on his game. He didn't do a good job of helping me get grounded. Instead, I began spiraling in a bad way. T seemed helpless to help and I noticed it. I do remember mustering the courage to ask him if he planned to work the following week and he replied yes. Before I could ask for an extra appointment time, he blurted out something that hurt me in a very deep way. Consciously, it wasn't directed at me but I'm not as certain it wasn't intended for me unconsciously.

It didn't help that T's family was in town for the holidays and I knew he was distracted, it just made matters worse. I left my session spiraling, ungrounded and dazed, very dazed.

It was a SUPER long two weeks.

My first session back after the holidays, we had the opportunity to discuss it. It was a great session and we talked a lot about the session and the period of time afterwards. I thought we had resolved it but, apparently, not. The feelings from that day keep resurfacing.

Now, I am scared they will never go away. A very deep part of me, is SUPER mad at my T right now which I have shared with him!

I know it will improve with time but it's hard right now.

Have you ever left a session with your T which felt like a "train wreck"? How did you work through it and move forward again?