I guess I just feel like if there was a real chance of me going down that path I'd already have some kind of urge to drink, but I don't feel anything like that...just have gotten too drunk more than once which I want to avoid, though if things keep going how they are that should not be hard the idea of drinking a lot makes me nauseous...maybe I've already had my one to many times of that. But yeah I don't know i feel like in all reality I drink less than most people in my age who aren't seen as having any sort of 'problem' with it. Like I don't make a point to religiously drink every weekend like a lot of 20-30 year old college students or people in the work force who I observe seem to do.

I honestly prefer cannabis as it reduces monthly cycle cramps, digestive discomfort I experience, as well as reducing the depression and anxiety as well as racing thoughts/overanalizing problems in unhelpful ways, also seems to help me focus on some things such as reading, which became difficult when I acquired the lovely disorder PTSD and of course it just generally makes it hard to really focus on anything that requires that as your mind ends up in a battle of 'should i focus on this or stay alert for possible danger' ...Reading used to be one of my favorite things but since then I cant get totally immersed in the story I am reading anymore, like I used to.