I guess my definition of caring is different? What you are describing sounds like "interest" or having your attention.. no offense or anything, but it's not what caring means for me. Maybe I need to use a different word altogether. I mean, if I committed suicide my T would probly feel sad when he heard the news, he would probly wonder if he had done what he could and then he would eventually forget about me. You don't forget about people you care about. They aren't in your mind 24/7 but you don't forget. They make you happy when you think about them and you want them to be a part of your life somehow.. not just part of your job.

I hope ths doesn't sound mean or anything, cuz I don't mean it that way. Just "care" is a vague word... I "care" the erosion of the cliff near my hometown.

I see a schema therapist. Ironically, the relationship is supposed to be really strong in schema... the big therapeutic alliance yadda yadda. I told him good luck with that. I am a challenge for him to work on, another case to try and crack. I think I am a kind of puzzle or game he can "win." I don't worry about that, that part doesn't matter. But convincing me he *cares*? Ha! That's a good one. My definition doesn't allow him in there anywhere. He is going to have to figure out another word/term or something if he wants a strong relationship. Because nothing will make me believe him if he uses the word "care."