I know that interviewing T's can be really anxiety-provoking and I feel for you there. I hated it, too so I really don't blame you.
Since you want CBT for anxiety though, I will tell you what I think a CBT-T would tell you. Which is that if you want to be less anxious, paradoxically you need to stop avoiding situations that make you anxious, which in your case includes interviewing potential T's. According to CBT, experiencing that you can be anxious about a situation and nothing really bad happens as a result is part of what will start to tame the anxiety.
Also a CBT therapist would ask you to examine your thinking about situations that make you anxious. You've identified that you're worried about a T pushing medication, being condescending, or not taking your relationship seriously. What are you afraid would happen as a result of those things, or what are you afraid of those responses meaning, that you are trying to avoid them? Because some people, in a situation where a T did those things, would just say "wow, too bad this T isn't very good that they aren't treating their client well" and go find someone else. But it seems like your thought process about that might be different? What is it exactly that goes through your head about those things?
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