i dont have an ED and hopefully somebody comes along that can identify better. my mother said horrible things about me being fat and it scarred me forever and i am a really large person and even though i am not as large anymore i still live with the stigma of being fat and unacceptable due to what she said. i dont eat at all during the day but when i get home and start eating, it is as you describe, i cant seem to stop myself. i am consumed with eating one thing after another.

since you have had issues in the past and feel like this is becoming an issue again and have all these questions popping up for you, is it possible for you to see a therapist for a few sessions so you dont backslide into unhealhty behaviors?