Okay, i didnt do much yesterday, but i did take a shower. Yeah i am one of those non-showerers. I remember the first time i decided not to take a shower. Definitely a slippery slope of depression and loss of self esteem which was non existent to begin with or whatever. Anyway mondays shower made it a lot easier for me to get up and get going on tuesday.

Also last night i texted t to confirm tuesday off, wednesday on. And i added some stuff about the super bowl cuz honestly i think he thinks that when i ask for time off, that i am mad at him or interviewing other ts, which i am not. Maybe i should say transferentially, not honestly. Then there is his countertransference - he still gets a little defensive. But i just asked for what i wanted, and gave him a little something too. Look at me being nice! Because thats how people should treat each other. A t is not a robot nor a whipping boy. My parents would remind me that i belonged to them, they made me, i was theirs. Gross. I am a child of the universe

So tuesday early afternoon and i have 3 loads of laundry in (i love apartment building laundry rooms with mass quantities of appliances!). So maybe the answer is yes, i can do this. Without getting killed.