The mental health suport worker came by today.
I haven't been doing that well lately. I'm very frustrated, I was doing fine then last week for no apparent reason I started getting irritated and having crying spells all for zero reasons. No sad, happy commercials or anything. Fustrated because I'm getting out, going to cardio workouts, yoga and tai chi...so where is this coming from, I feel like just crashing my car and throwing things.

So she was giving me options like calling for a sooner Pdoc appointment, walk in appointment or the psych emergencyservices. I feel like that's a bit much, I'm not suicidal. Just feeling implusive and irritableness. My fear is if I go in they'll throw me in the hospital. She claims they don't do that any more but she kept bring up the idea that they would have a crisis team evaluate and it wouldn't nessisarly be involuntary, they could call around and find a place that would be calmer than the regular place.
I know I'm having a hard time, it's out of the blue I'm on meds almost a year now and logically it would be wiser to seek the doctor out to ask about meds changes but the way she talked I'm afraid to.
Hope this raving makes sense. I don't know what I want I just know fear is in control.