I think you are right about money, we all need it in order to live for food clothing and shelter. my parents taught us to marry for love, of which after being so poor for so long now i sometimes wish i had married into money. i'm happy with my emotional love, but it saddens me that it is so hard not being able to give my son what he needs. he is emotionally going through a rough patch and is old enough to support himself, but his diagnosis stops him. as for anyone feeling as bad as you do, i have to challenge you on how you feel no one feels like you do. when i was 17 i tried to committ suicide because i was so lonely i couldn't take the pain of loneliness anymore. i didn't know how to communicate, and being poor, i didn't have nice things and didn't belong in the school click either. luckily it didn't work, i took a bunch of pills and was so surprised when i woke up the next morning.well, i won't say i understand but that is just my opinion on how i know how painful loneliness is.