I say well done for managing your thoughts so well. Don't ever be afraid to ask for help when they get too overwhelming. You could call and just say "I need you to know I am having these thoughts but right now they are under control and I don't want help. " then you've let them know but let them know how you feel.

It's ok to say that you don't know yet if yuou can ask for or receive help but that you acknowledge the presence of these intrusive thoughts.

Hope you keep well.