Thank you all for replying. I think I am feeling so codependency due to losing a friend. i think codependency was partially in our relationship. However, not to an unhealthy state. do truly love him, I've known him for 10 years but no I don't think the 7 months has been a healthy relationship, on both accounts. I have never had anxiety or depression unless a person has died. This is new to my past 7 months. I need to let go and accept. Hope for the best. Right now , in this stage, I hope one day we are both better people and we come back together. The first 5 months were wonderful and I wish that was what our lives together would have been forever. He's a very nice man. I think that we just weren't on the same page at this point in our lives I guess.