penance for all the bad things ive done. my twin used to have me do her hair and braid it and cut it. she came to me for comfort and i went to no one. i too am very good at caring for others but when it comes to me and what i need ive no clue.i dont kno what i need or what i feel.

i know when im with those little girls i feel very protective and sad at the same time. my twin loved babies and children. i am sad she never got to meet these 2 little girls. i also have a nephew i do not see due to family issues and where he lives. i feel bad that my nephew will not be able to recognize me ever yet i do believe he knows exactly what my twin looked like. my older sister straight up told me she shows pictures of her to him but never mentioned me.

i am open to learning i just dont know how to "tap" into my emotional side with anyone other than those children. my wife says she had the same issue when she started therapy 10yrs ago.now she can show emotion, and she happens to be very sensitive. and all i can do is be sensitive to her sensitivities.