Nervous have a hematology appointment tomorrow where I find out my bcr-abl level. That's my blood cancer marker. I'm trying to handle this. I told my therapist today that I wonder if me letting it consume me for a day or two would help just get it out of my system. I know I need grieve, but I can't get it all out. I hope therapy tomorrow is helpful dealing with this. I'm just unsettled and waiting for the bottom to drop out again. I was dealing with my PTSD stuff then here deal with cancer too. What's next?