I think it's the impulses that worried her. I choose not to go anywhere today because the way people drive is setting me off. Normally Im ok with the bad driving around here, but the last few days I've reacted by pulling out and roaring past the ***** holes. I feel like I'm putting my own invisable straight jacket around myself to not throw things.

I didn't even think about the lack of real sleep as a symptom snice I'm falling asleep, it's just the staying asleep that's causing problems. Guess I should add that to the things to watch for

I'm going to call in the morning to see if I can see the Pdoc sooner or do the walk in thing. I can't take much more of this. I blame myself though I feel like there s something I could have done to prevent it. Don't know what though because I've been eating better and going to workouts...I just feel so helpless ....maybe it's just that I don't want this damn illness