thanks for your reply chickenfoot.
i gotta keep on working to change the kind of therapy im getting.
id hate to goto someone new and re-explain my whole life again to a new person who might not be that good either. and then distance and money etc.

my episodes are everyday. but usually are about small to medium. and then (assuming theres not much stress in my life) the severe episodes maybe happen only once or twice a month. but i got a lot of stress going on. i mean school is extremely stressful by itself. and then not being able to get the support i hope and pay for.

ugh wow...and then my aunt died.

ever since my aunt died in mid november things have just been downhill. i was just crying about the whole thing yesterday or so. i cant believe that happened...