Bad news. My doc put me on lithium, lamictal, klonopin and Geodon. I had a bad reaction to the SSRI the second time that sent me into a mania of ups and downs and there not for me he said. So I'm going to go through a two month process of getting my body use to Lamictal, which treats depression, ancxiety and panic disorder. Two months of hell mean while. And to help alleviate that hell he wants me on Lithium to balance my mood and Klonopin for temporary relief from anxiety and panic.

I'm so sick of this ****. It's been since 2012 since I've been struggling to get the meds right. 2012! Failed experiment after failed experiment! I can't even support myself anymore. I've lost my independence in this struggle to save my soul. I now must move in with my mother, which only adds to the stress.

I feel like someone just shot my dog.