You have come to a good place to discuss what you are dealing with.

Are you on medication? Are you dealing with a professional?

Take a deep breath. Relax. And ask a few questions at a time.

One thing I like to do is what I call "passive therapy". Often you will find in medical offices, nice calming posters on the wall. I go to thrift shops and when I find a plaque with a saying on it that 'speaks to me' I pick it up. My favorite place to hang these is in the bathroom. Hey, while you're there,,,

I find them calming and make me feel better. Eventually I don't have to read them any more. Just a glimpse out of the corner of my eye brings the same feelings over me as if I had read it.

Life is a journey and if you are blessed, you will never stop learning.

Best wishes.