This is the most I've cried sober in a very long time. I really don't want her to go. I'm scared she'll never come back. I'm scared she'll die and I'll never know what happened. I'll just sit with my phone wondering forever why she never responds. I'm scared of being lonely for so long. Lonelier. I'm scared of getting upset and knowing she won't be there if I really need her. What if I need to make an important decision about something and she's not there to help me? What if someone hurts me and she's not there to cry to and help me figure out what to do? I'm scared she'll be unable to read the menu and accidentally eat something made entirely of soy and need medical attention and be unable to get it.