I was feeling pretty normal for the first time in a long time. I got out the house an volunteered to help out in the local community. It was great, I didn't get tired spent a good few hours out there. I was socializes with people like a normal person and everything. Next day I crashed, bad thoughts, couldn't get out the bed for 2 days then today was PART 2. I wasn't in the mood, I wasn't me, I didn't know how to talk to people, I was tired and annoyed, I stayed for an hour and left.

I really don't see how I could ever have any romantic relationship or even have kids. I feel I should just stay in my house and give up.