How it's going is fairly normal for a breakup. I'm devestated, lost, confused, wondering if I did the right thing - when I saw all the signs of unhealthy relationship. I think I'm feeling so sad and horrible because in the beginning he was 95% perfect. He was a perfect list of what I wanted. I'm so sad it turned toxic. I'm worried how I can improve my mistakes ? I'm wondering if I'll ever hug him again? He's not talking to me and telling my friends and family things - glorifying himself. When we were clearly both at fault- many times. I just want to hug him. Get some closer. He won't talk to me and I am no longer trying to contact him. My heart aches .