Today during my psychiatrist appointment my doctor brought up SSDI. He said he thought I would qualify and he thought it would be beneficial for me and he didn't see me going back to work soon. I won't qualify for it (because I haven't put in enough hours) and that is fine with me. However, it is a little discouraging that my doctor thought I would need it. I'm only 31 years old. He is always telling me to "be real" about things regarding my illness. His suggestion that I should be real about my illness in parenthood is the reason my husband and I decided not to have more children. Will I ever get past this illness? Will it always impose such strong consequences on my life? Even when I'm feeling relatively stable there rests a burden on my shoulder from manic depression. It just wears me out.