So I got an emergency pdoc appointment this morning as I couldnt stop hysterically crying before my uni appointment, so I didnt go, and then I got more depressed.

Anyway, he advised to go to hospital, called the hospital - no beds available. I said Im not a threat to myself if I stay with people so he said that its best I stay with friends, be active yet relaxed and take zyprexa twice daily until I see him next sometime in the next 10 days.

Im to keep up with my meditation and start yoga again. I guess I really really have to try and stick to a routine again as well. It will be easier in a home environment where the kids get up for school and the animals need to be fed etc. And its such a peaceful environment (when the kids arnt around lol). There are lots of things I could be doing there to aid recovery. I really hope the zyprexa doesnt zombify me so much that I do nothing.

And I hope the munchies arnt too bad!! I have just started a new diet from my GP too. I caved and got sushi this morning and I havent even started on the zyprexa yet!