As Jimi Hendrix said, 'Manic Depression is a frustrating mess'.

I could write a long list of things that I feel Bipolar has stolen from me and it breaks my heart so I kind of understand some of your pain. In the end, unless you are in a very unwell place, you are the best judge of what you can or cannot deal with. Accepting that I have Bipolar and that it brings certain restrictions to my life is very hard for me to deal with. I have only been diagnosed 18 months ago so I have not made peace with it yet but I do hope that it is possible for all of us. Still Bipolar is an illness to be taken very seriously and perhaps your doctor is just giving you options to manage living with Bipolar. I wish there was a button that we could all push and get off the BP merry-go-round as it is exhausting. To my knowledge though there is not. Take care.