Recently I question everything. Why am I here? Why do I go to school? Why haven't I gotten rid of myself yet? The answer is I'm living a lie I've created. I don't know how to escape. I've been pretending I'm outgoing and friendly and caring but I'm pessimistic, always angry, and extremely vendictive. I just started out here and I feel like maybe people here will understand me.

I've been living this lie since my life, innocence and happiness were taken ftom me by a man that molested me in an almost "this is normal way"

I can't even be myself around friends( I made them with my lie of a life) but would they understand why I had to lie. I can't let anyone in, how do I become more open like my fake self?
How do I participate in society without just creating more fake mes to distract people?