I feel, like I'm stuck. Stuck in myself. I'm just so, I don't know.

How can life be so good, when I'm constantly feeling down.

Why do I think so much? How do I stop, move forward, get over it all.

I'm just so confused. Like, everything is so awesome. But I just can't feel half decent. I'm tired, I'm down, and I'm struggling to concentrate at times.
I get home from work, and I just feel totally drained. No energy, nothing.
But I power on. I cook dinner, I clean, then I do some other work.
I'm so tired.
But tired isn't my problem.
I've been feeling like this for a couple of months now. I had 4 weeks holidays, the best holiday I've ever had!! And the whole time, I still felt down.
I just keep thinking about everything.
Everything that I've ever bottled up inside me.
It's like it all wants out.

I want it all out!! But I'm shy, I'm not confident. The thought of opening up to anyone scares me. I couldn't do it.
I don't think I will do it.
But then how am I going to help myself get everything out

There's just so much stuff up there, so much stuff that I should have opened up to someone years ago. But I couldn't, I wouldn't.
Everything is just outpouring from my thinking.

I just want someone to yank it all out! So I don't feel this way anymore.

I'm going to have to talk to someone hey ?