Last night I was very close to making a serious suicide attempt. I won't go into details but i am IP but not in a locked ward. The point is I was just that low and agitated. Thankfully a nurse found me and sat with me for half an hour calming me down. After a huge amount of meds given to me by the nursing staff to calm me down I only slept 4 hours, then passed the time online before having my first ECT treatment around 7am. My mood was still very low after treatment but by midday I began to become extremely cheerful, super-positive and basically hypomanic. This was a dramatic switch in mood and it has occurred before in both directions; manic to deeply depressed or deeply depressed to manic.

I am just wondering if others here experience such swift, dramatic swings and where it leads to. I have leveled out before but sometimes I just keep swinging and it is hell to live through with no solid ground.