to be honest i dont think it was ambien. i take ambien every night. last night when i said i was gonna have a drink i took half a shot of liquor and 3 sips of beer. which i ended up throwing up because it was old beer and liquor. i took my ambien and xanax too. they didnt do a thing to me. i know they didnt because i felt no physical effect by them. and they prob didnt because i take them everyday. you know tolerance.

last night was a pure episode. i honestly dont think anything i took factored into last night. before i took the meds and drank i was already slipping. i just thought it was another small slip that would end in an hour. but it lasted til midnight.

i remember a bit of what happened last night.

but right now thinking about it is bringing on anxiety attack. that was bad.
and i woke up still in the same mindset as last night.
im strongly considering taking my haldol this morning.