I sometimes contemplate the pain of others and just find that it is just so much. I tried to read the names of the people who died in 9/11. I couldn't do it. I am sorry that you feel so overwhelmed by the pain of the world. I wish the world was a more peacefull place. I suspect that you have a strong sense of empathy for others which can be nice at times and a pain in the neck at other times. I sometimes can't stand to see someone cry on the news. It just get to me.