I am scared to tell my doc or any health care worker how I am really feeling because I don't want to be locked up or hospitalized to be politically correct. I am hanging by my finger nails trying to not hurt myself. The truth is I really don't want to live anymore, not because of life issues but because I cant stand feeling the way I feel. constantly fighting the demons. I am paralized by my anxiety to the point that I can barely spend time wwith my family. I feel sorry for myself because of the depression. I feel like my family is turning on me. I didn't know where to turn so that is why I am here. Reaching to?