I have two theories.
Either there is some part of my brain that is malfunctioning and therefore makes me unable to experience any meaningful emotions. Or it's a self-protection mechanism because maybe I wouldn't be able to deal with the negative stuff in my mind.
I was diagnosed with severe depression in 2012. I haven't been in treatment since. Stopped taking my antidepressants last year.
There is no one I could talk to or would want to talk to. I probably don't even care enough to do anything about it. I know that this isn't right and that I might at least feel a bit better with the right treatment but I can't make myself care enough.