I'm so sorry to read of your sadness, JumpingJacks. Loneliness can be difficult in the daylight. At night it can be deadly. I don't know why it is your friends are all in another state. Perhaps you moved to go to school or for a job? I sincerely hope you can find some ways to remedy your loneliness that do not involve drinking & sleeping with people you would otherwise hate. In the long run, I fear, these practices will only add to your despair. My best wishes to you.