I'm very anti-benzo. Cuz it doesn't make sense. It's like heroin except you don't overdose, you die cuz you stop. Heroin withdrawals aren't life threatening. Methadone withdrawals are. The world is really screwed "no no heroin is bad take methadone"

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I left school today early feeling edgy. Now I'm feeling idk hypomanic. I don't think it is though. I consider hypomania to be when i just suddenly got really really really happy and then was just sitting at the dinner table high as hell on nothing then went outside listened to music and I felt it going away once I saw the highway cuz it reminded me of my suicidal depression I guess.

This is more... More anti depressed when I wasn't even depressed if that makes sense

But I have motivation serious motivation I'm going to use it