Does anyone talk to themselves or shout out, in private, to stop an unhappy thought?

I have the habit of talking out to myself. If my mind has drifted away or flashed to an unhappy memory or thought, I might say, "No!" - or similar word- to stop the thought. It's a nervous habit, I think. Many times I catch myself trash-talking myself when I remember something....Like, "I hate you!"

Well, I told T that many times I trash-talk myself worse than anyone has ever trash-talked me. I would rarely ever say to anyone the kinds of things I say out loud to myself. I can't type most of these words here because they'd just appear as ***** .

Sooo, my assignment is to make a list of things I say out loud to myself.
I warned her that these words are far from nice. I discovered I can swear like a sailor...I think I have even made up new swear words in the heat of the moment. I don't normally swear IRL unless I lose playing a video game. Lol.

The more I think about, I am enjoying the idea of my sweet little old lady T with soft flowing clothes and big glasses- of having her read my list outloud.
I don't know how we are going to do this...but it might be educational for one of us.