I identify as straight woman and have only been in romantic relationships with men.

I'm sexually attracted to men. I have no sexual attraction to women.

I find most women aesthetically pleasing to look at. Rarely do I find men aesthetically pleasing to look at.

I have deep emotional connections to women. I have only had an emotional connection to two different men: one I found out later is gay.

I feel physically and emotionally safe with most women. I do not feel physically and emotionally safe with most men.

I enjoy non-sexual touch from women more so than I do men.

So the only thing that makes me straight is my sexual attraction.

Does emotional attraction have to be related to sexual attraction? Am I emotionally attracted to women, but sexually attracted to men?

I have been this way my whole life. My friends would say "Oh look at that hot guy over there", and I couldn't pick the guy out. But my dad would say: "That woman over there is hot", and I instantly knew which woman it was. People have often told me I should be a lesbian if not bi. But the thought of me being sexually intimate with a woman is disgusting and I'm not homophobic in anyway.

I have had over 20 "mother-figures" in my life. I have also been taken advantage of by many men. There are also somethings about me that suggest something happened to me sexually as a child, but I have absolutely no memory of anything.

So it might be assumed that the non-sexual intimacy I experience with women is due to a mother-child type role. But I have experienced non-sexual intimacy with girls my age too. And 2 male friends.

Is there an explanation or term that describes me? Am I just weird? Does anyone else relate?

I read somewhere that this would be considered bisexual. Is that true? Or is it bi-[something else]?