reaching to ?, I am here reading your words and wondering what words of mine would help you to know that you are not alone. I am here trying to figure out how to help you so many miles away yet only a few key strokes so close. I don't want you to hurt yourself and yet I know you need to feel something to take your emotional pain away. What can I do for you? Can you trust your thoughts right now. Thoughts are always changing and they will dissipate like thin air in just a little while. Hang on to one good thought. Just find one good thing to hang on to and think about it very strongly. Try to only think in a moment. Not today, not tomorrow, not yesterday but right now. Can you catch a thought for just a moment and not let it try to turn negative. It may sound strange but give it a try. Hugs are already on their way to you in Ontario.......