I hope this is in the correct place. If not sorry. ;-(
I have a dog. Her name is Miscellaneous and I love her beyond belief. I've always said "she is me and I am she" and it's been that way for 12 years now. Last month she wasnt doing well so off to the vet, whom I trust with "our" lives. A few degenerative things but ok. Last Friday Miss became quite ill, pain, throwing up and the runs. I brought her in and they kept her there for IVs etc. I don't know how to explain the emotions but they were CRAZY!! I wasn't thinking she would die..in fact now I can't remember any thoughts. Just a huge terrible horrible empty feeling. At one point it scared me so much that I thought I needed the psych ward and called the clinic. A kind nurse told me that it was OK to feel so horrible and that I was not insane because this little ball of fluff, my life was so important to me. I would cry and cry and mumble please don't hurt please dont hurt and wait for me to come be with her. The nurse asked if there was anyone to be with me...and guess what??? There was NO ONE!!! To make a long story short, Miss got to come home saturday and seems to be doing ok. She has pancreaitis so who knows if this will take her. What kills me..ok 2 things. Is it normal to become that emotionally crazy about a pet?? and why do I have no support system?? Think I will come back here often and see if that can be remedied. Thank you for listening