hi I joined a while ago. But have not felt a need to be here much. Until now. I am tired of having to hide half of who I am. If people know even a little bit about the depressed feaarful half they run. The only way I can be valued is if I pretend to be this light filled wise person ALL the time. I can pull it off. But it really is a sham. As soon as I even reveal a tiny part of the other side of myself, people want nothing to do with me. So I have to come to places like this to be honest. I am tired of the 2 options of either hiding who I am or being only the impressive half of myself. Thanks for reading.