And then it's a three-day weekend here, and my son will be away, and all my support people will be unavailable, too. I guess at least i can call the contact centre and/or crisis. And respite has been flagged in my notes as an option if i feel i need it. But that doesn't feel safe.

Nowhere feels safe at the moment. People don't listen to me and they touch me and they scare me and it leaves me feeling unsafe in my body and in the world. While they just carry on going about their day.

And the pain is doing my head in.