Heavens this may strike you as funny but I gotta tell you Ipse that I think you sound like a wonderful heart . I'd be your therapist for God's sake. I mean if I actually were one. Why did you feel the need for the break in therapy? Was the attachment just too difficult to handle? I have thought of leaving therapy for that reason ... because I am so bloody attached to my therapist (I am female & he is male) but I have not had the guts to yet. He has been away on vacation though and I have been missing him terribly. It must be agonizing waiting for your T to answer your questions. (((Dixit))) Hope you hear from her soon.