I have very distinct manias and hypomanias, and during mania I'm basically useless. I get too crazy to be able to focus on anything and I'm either dancing on the moon or in a rage. When I'm hypo, I'm really productive and put out prodigious amounts of work, although I tend to make a lot of mistakes and laugh them off even when they're pretty serious. I had to retire from nursing because I was afraid I'd kill somebody.