I'm on vacation with my parents and some friends of theirs. Everyone I've told expects me to be really happy and excited about it, and my parents do too, so I play along and pretend to be loving it... But this vacation is really putting a huge strain on me and pretending otherwise is getting lonely. I mean I do enjoy seeing new things and I'm not complaining about the weather, but there's just way too much going on here. Way too many people... suspicious food that I have to eat because I don't even want to start on that subject... way out of my comfort zone in so many ways. Got some emotional help from my ex via text messages but now he doesn't seem so interested in answering my texts anymore... I really just feel like crying but don't see how that's going to help either. And I'm trying really hard not to lose more than the 5kg I already lost due to the stress (underweight). Seven days left. Have to keep going... I feel so lost here, I just want to go home.