Thank you for sharing stace89. I have been diagnosed with a variety of illnesses over the years. If you pay using insurance they must have given you a diagnosis or I doubt they are getting paid. I would come right and ask what it is.

I have a therapist who always wanted to focus on my childhood. Yes this can be important, but it wasn't important to me anymore. I've done a lot of that work with other therapists. I had to explain to her (more than once) that I don't care that my father gave me my first beer at 8 years old. I want to focus on what I am feeling today. How can you help me live today. If my past comes up, it comes up, but we both have to agree to discuss it. It is not her decision alone. Maybe by hanging out here you will learn many things that will be helpful. For example, the therapist works for you, you do not work for her.

Keep sharing it was nice to hear from you.