just really for always being in one mood or another. i'm sure people must think i'm quite mad. i'm trying to keep myself and my thoughts busy. its so hard. some days it's easy, some not. i cant get help until i am feeling better and not having bad thoughts. sometimes my mask is on and i am someone else being happy/flirty etc, sometimes my mask is off sand i find it hard to find my mask if that makes any sense. sometimes i'm ok one minute and down the next.
please dont think i'm mad, i will be getting help soon, just have to keep the s......l thoughts away.

jinny, kerry, sad *****, whatever you want to think really.